maybe i'm losing my mind, but i miss you. i've considered all the options, and it's probably something silly... like you left your phone at work, or your phone died and for some reason your charger wasn't in the car. it's not like you to not get back to me, but i'm hoping that you are okay, more than anything. had a really strange day today... my budgeting class always feels exhausting. and i watched a movie about mary (Jesus' mother) taking drugs out of Columbia into the US.... extremely strange and disturbing movie. decided to do our presentation (at the group meeting for health psyc) on smoking and ways to quit. came up with some really neat ideas... also, my licsence picture turned out pretty decent. you'll have to check out my signature on there when you see me tomorrow.
speaking of tomorrow, it's going to be way longer than today. not really looking forward to that aspect. too much accountability. too much draining. to be honest, i just feel like relaxing and getting a back massage. i can't begin to explain to you just how much my back hurt in budgeting tonight. i took SO many notes for you... it was the session on credit cards... my hands still ache. and my neck and back... ew... i had to contort into strange positions to even write with my pencil. it was especially bad tonight. i just need some down time. and i don't think i'm going to get it because i think my mom is making me go with her to NC for spring break, but i had some stuff planned for JUST ME over spring break... but now i don't think it's happening... :/ i wanted to go some places along to just think and clear my head (and not tell anyone where i will be... not far, just secret.. :P) and just be alone for a bit... and i wanted to get my massage... and do some cleaning. oh well :/ i'm just feeling very thin; ew..
i feel like i have something more to say, but i can't remember it. i've been up super late lately.. dunno... but barely sleeping. no good. & i have a really busy day tomorrow..
maybe someday this blog will become more of a blog than a journal, but for now, it's mostly a journal for me to tell you what i'm thinking.. maybe it will be helpful. i hope so... i hope you are safe. i love you very much...
